A “New” Me….. 

In order to love someone else, you must learn to love yourself. Maybe this is why I have never had a successful relationship. I love the idea of “love”, “togetherness” and “forever” but the “insecure” demons always find their way to interfere. I am offering myself a 30 Day “I love Myself” challenge beginning on my birthday April 1st… In the meantime I will create a vision board, put health and fitness as a priority and work on a better me. I’ve come along way…. But feel I should be happier and more successful than I currently am….. I am on a mission to achieve my goals and stop allowing “fear” and “insecurity” to hold me back…. I hope on this day next year…. I am happy, financially secure and in awesome health! 

Our Argument Tonight

I think the key to a successful marriage and relationship is being with your “opposite”. If you tend to be the aggressor then you need a significant other that is submissive and vice versa. What has lead me go this thought process is…..

Tonight my boyfriend and I 

engaged in a conversation over “Social Media’s influence on bullying” he said “no one should ever talk about another person” I wholeheartedly agreed with him and voiced that “these days being bullied is different then the 70s-90s and this is because of social media. Everyone is out to gain social popularity that they will use someone’s humility as their moment to shine via FB, YouTube and Vine, etc” 

The next thing I realized the conversation went from a “cordial” debate to “well you are….” “You say” and ” I tell you all of the time…”

Wait a damn minute….. How did this conversation turn to a “Juanita (me) is a bully” and my sarcasm is “rude, rash and harsh”. 

Since I am not submissive, I voiced my opinion and since he is not submissive, he voiced his got damn opinion…

And now the room is silent to the point… He did asked if  I would like a glass of wine. Since I replied “no” he gave me his typical “cool, I knew it” which translate (mentally) to “I know you have an attitude and so do I” yes, he has an attitude and (I know he does) because it is his turn to move in “Trivia Crack” and he has yet to make a move in our two current games  proves he’s being a petty ass and he’s mad…

Yes, he is currently playing “Trivia Crack” because I can hear it, I know he is bypassing me…. Secretly, I hope his petty ass bypasses for another day so I can obtain a easy win…..

This is “typical” for us… Two headed, strong minded,opinionated people who love each other overall but fight like cats n dogs…..

Since he’s not talking to me or making a move in “Trivia Crack” I plan to be petty and sleep on the couch…. LOL… 

The picture above represents is currently….except he is now playing xbox one…and I’m laying on the couch typing this…

I wouldn’t trade his ass in the world for no one… Well… Maybe….just kidding! Or am I?!