I’m Tired

Everyone has always looked at me and thought of me as being strong. My strength came from fucked life experiences where I had no choice but to be strong or fold to the hatred n anger around. But some people get to a point when being strong is not enough anymore. I’ve cried so many tears that eyes respond to me “bitch please”. My heart doesn’t know what its like to experience love for everytime it has entered my life its caused me the greatest pain. I try to be positive and look forward to a better and happier future. But in return my dreams, my hopes n my desires are taken from me. I hide my pain through my rough exterior and through my sarcasm but lately I’ve discovered “i’m tired”. I’ve given up on love, I’ve given up on friendship, I’ve given up “trying”. What is life without love and no one to share it with? What is a life full of disappointments and rejections?? What is life when you spend most of your time here “fighting” and trying to be accepted? My life!

4 thoughts on “I’m Tired

  1. Wow. You have such passion. You know by now that the strong is always misunderstood. And we always know that the fight for acceptance is a downfall for sure. However, if you are tired, you are worn. Take some time for you— alone. Write down your thoughts (you are a writer and writing is therapeutic). You will find out exactly why you are tired. Peek over in my world for any comfort you may need. I just buried my Mom but even in that I am not tired, because I am still here and there is another day that I can control how my life will change in the morning. Stay strong Sis!

  2. Keith Harris says:

    Don’t give up. There is so much to live for.

  3. johncoyote says:

    I understand the thoughts. I’m tire also. I go forward for family. Need someone who can make enough money to keep the family afloat. I believe we must find reasons to keep going forward. I like my reading and writing. Taking the Grand-kids to places. A powerful poem.

  4. I know what you mean. Sometimes I wonder why I try to reach out to others when I know that it will probably just lead to disappointments. But I still believe that human connections are one of the worthwhile parts of life. Right? Yes, I do believe that. Hang in there, I think that there will be better days ahead

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